Longing and Belonging

longing and belonging

Our longing is to belong…we’ve been cast out of the circle and as a result exiled ourselves from our sacred mandala, temple body and this land. As if it’s not punishment enough that we’ve been stripped of our ability to bond with our own vessel, we’ve also been banished from the dream…

We are all here to experience life. To live, learn, love and ultimately to expand our consciousness. However, as a society we are a “traumatized species.” We live in a goal-driven society with a social order that is not in harmony with the natural cycles of life. As a result suffering is an inevitable part of our human experience. Trauma naturally breaches the boundaries of our self-hood. It causes us to doubt ourselves and our judgement because with trauma we try to figure out ways to prevent similar experiences hoping we can control the uncontrollable about our life. Above all trauma shakes our faith and it affects our ability to be in the here and now. Illusion, procrastination, fear and disorganization are stages of a mass trauma response that we all experience on a day to day basis. These distractions keep us unhealthy and keep us from missing out on life. We can however heal. We can counteract these interferences with essential resources such as clean water, nature and human contact. We must be grounded in order to heal.

Our job is not to try to make everything better…it is simply to witness, to experience, to be with- to hold- presence. Suffering is painful, grief is heavy, anger is throbbing, fear is paralyzing. Feel it? Choices remind us we are free. How do we know we are fully alive. FEEL fully alive. We create, we experience, we live, we learn, we laugh, we love, we dream, we heal. When we create, we seed life. Our breath gives shape to form it is expansive. Other people try to change what they don’t understand. They think that control keeps them safe but it only keeps them small. They try to hold us back by projecting their fears onto us acting like something is wrong with us. They can fix us make us better. Who are they? In what world do we need someone to change us so they can feel better about themselves? Our pain and suffering gives us depth of character. It is a gift to truly know the depth of the human experience. This is how we connect, bond. The gift, the medicine is we also get to experience love, joy, beauty, pleasure, ecstasy.

Please don’t take my pain away. It is the only thing that keeps me sane in this insane asylum. Ask for permission. Do not invade my space. Give me space to heal. Hold your own so we can feel each other’s company and enter in kin-ship together as one.

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